It’s been several months since I penned anything for this old blog. I don’t think anyone missed me though. There haven’t been any special requests or inquiries as to my whereabouts. It’s just the nature of the beast. That’s what happens when we writers, artists as such, begin to believe that what we have to say is relevant to others. All you have to do is step away from it for about 5 months to see just how much you were really being followed. Not much for me.
I could have been writing. There was plenty going on. I got a job after being out of work for 7 months. My step-daughter got divorced. My son moved back in with us after being gone about 6 years. Over 1700 people attended Christmas services at my church, New Walk, in Zephyrhills FL. (Not bad for being held in the gym of the YMCA.) I continue to struggle with my weight, my health, my old habits, and more. There was plenty of material to write about. But, who would be interested in that stuff?
For the most part I believe that we have tendencies to take our lives too seriously. We believe that all the stuff in our lives matters to so many people. But the reality is it doesn’t. Everyone else has their own stuff. (as much if not more than you!) Sure, other people express concerns and try to help you through your stuff. But at the end of the day they still have their stuff to tend to. It is what it is.
Me, I’m ok with all that. Truth is, there has been plenty of things I could have said in this blog over the past few months. It kind of serves as a release for me whether anyone else reads it or not. But there was a lot going on that I really didn’t want to share with anyone else. The kind of things you just have to work through yourself.
Never mind. Jury, you are instructed to ignore that last statement. My issues were between God and me. Some of them are a work in progress. But here is the good news: “I know he is working on it“. I am not alone in any of it. Sometimes I forget. Sometimes I do try to do it on my own. Of course, it never gets done. Not right anyway.
The Truth of the presence of God in our lives is all around us.
1 In you, LORD, I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame;
deliver me in your righteousness.
2 Turn your ear to me,
come quickly to my rescue;
be my rock of refuge,
a strong fortress to save me.
3 Since you are my rock and my fortress,
for the sake of your name lead and guide me.
God is with you always. He hears your laughs, your cries, your concerns, your frustration, and your anger. He is beside you in both good times and bad. His love and mercy are there for the taking at any given moment. And his gift of grace is unsurpassed.
No, no one missed my blog posts. Not even those unwritten.
With all the crap of this world being constantly flung in front of the public, it’s hard to believe that someone as public a figure as Ann Rice could make such a statement. But then again, ” Why not?”. More and more those who have no substantial evidence to Christianoty other than a few prophetic words tend to stand aside and let Satan speak for them in a public forum.
How sad it will be when these people of greatness stand before our God and relenquish their eternity to the burning of their souls in the fires of hell, all for the simple fact that when given the op to share their Christian testimony they chose the easy way out and camped on the side of evil instead of sharing the challenging notion of their faith in the Lord God almighty and Christ our King. s
Where r u in ur faith? R u ready to carry the cross of Jesus? Can u stand even the simplest of persecution for his deeds? Pray and think about it.
At 51.5 years old I can say that I have pretty much lived my life, for better or worse, any way I wanted to. And it shows. I am over 200 lbs over weight. My body is riddled with arthritis and other physical ailments. I have blood pressure issues. I have sleep apnea and use a Bi-PAP machine that I cannot live without. (I have literally died and self resuscitated myself over 100 times). All this for the sake of living the high life.
What is the high life? For many years I was a recreational drug user. I smoked a lot of pot. Hit some of the hard stuff every now and again. Stayed up way too late and partied way too often. I ate whatever I wanted and sometimes ate when I really didn’t want anything. My life has been filled with poor choices over everything that has to do with my body.
Now, after all of these years of self-abuse, a change is on the horizon. It is a self-inflicted change that there is no going back from. And it will change the way I manage my body, and my life, from now until the day I die an earthly death.
Proverbs 3:5 (New International Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
Colossians 1:10 (New International Version)
10And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God,
Psalm 18:46 (New International Version)
46 The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted be God my Savior!
I am renewing myself before God. I am cleansing myself of some of the horrible temptations of gluttony I have faced on this earth and rejuvenating my body that I might live a physical life more pleasing to God. The Holy Spirit is with me, the one who as part of the Trinity, and is the doorway of communication with God on this earth. I am reconciled before him. I lift up this entire process in the name of Jesus Christ. I am yours oh Lord.
Thursday, March 5th, marks the first day of my preparation for weight-loss surgery. On March 19th I will undergo surgery to place a lap-band inside my earthly body to restrict what I can put in it because I cannot control it on my own. This entire process I lay at the feet of Jesus. I ask that Jesus use me in whatever way he sees fit as a living testimony of my will to commit long-term to serving him. May this become a ministry tool to help others change their lives for the Glory of God.
Where we go from here is yet to be determined. But the pathway has been laid. What will you give up to better be able to serve and honor God? Welcome to the journey!
Yesterday was awesome for me. Yes, I did finally get to eat, but was not in a rush to do so. I really DID watch what I ate. And even though I was up late watching the football game I didn’t snack. God is getting me there. I feel like I can really do this. If anyone ever doubted that our God exists hear me now…….YES HE DOES!
Proverbs 23:3 “Do not crave his delicacies,
for that food is deceptive.”
Dig it! I put my trust in the Lord for he has faith in me. He is my strength and shield, my light in the darkess, and my shelter from the elements. Bring it on Satan!