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Words Of Faith From The Mother Of A Child WIth Cancer

Aside from some of the other things I dabble in, I also run a Facebook page supporting awareness of childhood cancers. When I saw this post today it set me back and made me truly reflect on my own faith and inner strength. At the end of the day I can turn off my computer and retreat to the den. Or I can go crawl into bed and leave reality. But the daily struggles that parents of children with cancers face is their reality. This post was very humbling. I invite you to read her story, then visit and “LIKE” their Facebook page, Pray for Grey – The Journey Continues

https://www.facebook.com/Pray.for.Grey.The.Journey

I’ve stepped away from this page for a while, searching my own heart, seeking God and trying to make sense of life in general. I am human, I am weak and my faith falters at times. It has always been my desire to keep this page positive, uplifting, encouraging and hope filled… but in doing so, I sometimes wonder if I have created a false view of who I am as a person and as a mother to a child with such huge health challenges.

Our life is filled with ups and downs, strengths and weaknesses, rejoicing and heartache, trust and fear… It is a roller coaster ride of emotions that one cannot fully understand until they have walked this road themselves. Faith is built up and torn down, sometimes prayers seem to fade into the distance and silence seems to be their answer.

Silence. 

It is amazing how loud and overwhelming silence can be when that silence seems to be coming from the God in whom we believe and trust. Have you been there? Have you ever felt that God had walked away for a while… taken a stroll when you needed Him most? Have you ever looked up and asked, “Where are You and what on earth are You doing?”

When we find ourselves drowning in adversity or overwhelmed with heartache and brokenness, it is human nature to desire… no… to demand answers as to our sufferings.

When it comes to heartache and suffering there is no greater example than the man, Job. He had everything… God’s blessings had been upon him and he prospered immensely. But one day events unraveled and all that Job had was taken from him; all of his possessions, all of his livestock, all of his servants, all of his children… and then, even his own health. In his suffering, his friends accused him of wrong doing and turned away from him.

Who would have blamed Job for crying out in anger against the God that he had loved and served? After all… what kind of loving God would allow such heartache to fall upon one who had served Him so devoutly?

How many times I have heard this question posed… “What kind of God”… or “Where is God when…” It is Satan’s snare to trip us when we are weakened emotionally and spiritually… when life has beaten us down and we find ourselves worn and completely overwhelmed and we are at our most vulnerable… It is then that the enemy attacks and places doubts and questions in our minds and hearts.

This snare trapped Job’s wife. In the book of Job, chapter 2 and verse 9 His wife said to him, “Are you still maintaining your integrity? Curse God and die!” I can imagine that Satan was never so close to a smile than at that moment as he leaned in to hear Job’s reply, confident that Job would fall to his wife’s words and his current circumstances. Everything hung on Job’s reply to his wife.
Job’s reply is both magnificent and astounding. Job 2:10 records Job’s words… “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks”.

… Ouch!…

I’m certain that is not the reply she was expecting. How magnificent and inspiring that even in all of his misery and brokenness, as he sat there covered in sores not knowing if his life would ever change, Job stood firm and even posed a question back to his wife. “Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity”?

Isn’t that our way? Every single day there are blessings in our lives. Some are huge and we cannot deny them, others must be sought out, but they are there. But how easily we accept those blessings, and even feel entitled to them or we credit ourselves for their existence… but the very second something doesn’t go our way we begin the blame game with God.

“Why? Why me? I live a good life; I go to church, tithe, I give to the poor, feed the hungry, care for sick children, help the elderly, and protect the animals; donate to a worthy cause… I’m a good person… I don’t deserve this!

But Job acknowledged that he served a God who had every right to do whatever He wanted to do, to allow whatever He needed to allow without obligation of explanation. Notice… I said ALLOW. I do not believe God to be the author of pain and suffering… these things come from Satan, but they are ALLOWED into our lives to shape us, mold us, grow us, restore us and even break us for the glory of God. God has no obligation to step into a hospital room and say, “Now let me offer you five reasons why this has happened to your son.” God is full of compassion and His heart breaks with ours as we face adversities, but His plan is beyond our comprehension.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts”. Isaiah 55:8-9

So we say, with Job, “God… I trust you. I don’t begin to know why I am going through this. But You see me, You know me, You know this hurt and Your heart breaks with mine. If I must walk this road, if there is something that I can learn, reveal it to me. If there is something someone else can learn, help me be what they need even in my brokenness. Lord, I give this to You, just get me through it. Hold me close. Deepen me. Change me and restore me”.

Job knew God was God, and that someday all that was mystery would be revealed. When we leave this life for eternity and we step into God’s presence… for the first time we will be given the panoramic view… We will see from beginning to end and then (and not until then) we will respond, “So THAT’S the reason! Now I get it!”

God is totally and completely and absolutely in control.

If you lose every single member of your family, He is in control.

If your marriage crumbles and you find yourself alone, He is in control.

If you finances crash and lead you into bankruptcy, He is in control.

If the test results are not what you had prayed for and things could not be worse, God is in control.

There is a greater plan behind it all. One day, that plan will be revealed and we will see beyond the pain and suffering and find purpose. How absolutely amazing and magnificent to see those who choose to trust Him to the very end of this vale of suffering saying;

“May His name be praised… I don’t understand it. I can’t explain it. Nevertheless, may His name be praised.”

May God enable us to raise our faith to such heights.

Covered in grace,
~Lesley~

Why do christians still struggle with depression?

Although I have had my share of breaks away from the local church, I have been what I would call a practicing christian for some time. I love leading worship and giving God glory and praise. I should do fairly well when I get to heaven in that regard. But even though I am pretty much steeped in the word of God and working daily to try to walk in a christ-like manner, I still get attacked by my share of demons. The largest of those demons for me is depression.

Now, I know we christians are supposed to be able to shake off the depression demon with a raising of a hand, bowing of the head, and a loud “SATAN BE GONE!” Sometimes that works for me too. But for the most part I forget about that stuff and find myself in a downward spiral into a deep dark funk. Sure, I take medication for it. Over the years that medication has changed, as has the strength. I’m not ashamed to share that with you either because I know that someone out there in Blogger land struggles with the same thing. But even with the medications, and the knowledge that God can relieve the stranglehold of depression, we still tend to keep ourselves there in the darkness for way longer than we should.

Psalm 40:1-3

(1) I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. (2) He brought me up also out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. (3) And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.

Depression is no laughing matter. Too many times it is taken too lightly by those around us who may not ever understand what is going on inside you. Usually someone who is severely depressed either shares nothing at all about what’s going on in their heads, or they share so much that the people they are associated with eventually just don’t want to be around them anymore. Neither of these is going to help. We can’t rely on others to help get us out of the depressed mode. And we can never do it ourselves either. The first thing we have to do is give it to God. Stay focused on that request. Pray for Him to take this burden off you, and continue until he does. I’m not suggesting that you drop the medications by no means. God may be helping you out by putting you in a position to get treatment. You can’t put God in a box and expect him to use just one way of coming to your aid. He will put people and things in your path to help you overcome the depression. That includes doctors and the medications they prescribe. Needless to say if you feel you are dealing with depression pray for first and ask God to assist you. If you feel the nudge to go to a doctor then go! Don’t put it off.

Sounds like I have all the answers? No. I still struggle with it every day. I have good days and bad days. But I am aware of it and I recognize immediately what I have to do to move forward. I pray that this article reaches you, that it lets you know you are not alone with this. If you are feeling depressed I ask you to join the conversation. Let’s talk about it and share our feelings. I am here to help you. If you want to keep the conversation private please email me at johnshelton58@gmail.com.

May God bless you and carry you through your struggles.

John S.

Poor mans Dobro/ Dunlop produces the ultimate slide-Capo

Poor mans Dobro/ Dunlop produces the ultimate slide-Capo.

Definition of Me

Forget who I was.
Know who I am.
Don’t ask me to go back.
I am only moving forward.
If you need me to be someone else
Then you need to find someone else.
I no longer crawl in the shadows.
I walk in the Light.

– John S.

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